11th December 2018
Today I decided to let go and let flow. I literally can’t take in any more information to process.
Too many updates, too much to let go- then take in and over and over again.
So, I am letting go completely. Whatever comes next is meant for me and I will deal with it when it comes. Not before.
Right now, I am hurting. My son has expressed his feelings about our family life and I have realised that I feel the same.
That has been our family life for years.
It made me sad to remember that we used to dance in the kitchen, in our 4x smaller kitchen, in our old house.
Where we now live, we have three floors and too many rooms. So many in fact, that my daughter used to run from one room to the other, as walking would take her too long to find someone in one of the other rooms.
Some would say that I am blessed in every sense. And they might be right.
I should feel more blessed and happy, compared to when I had less (of a house and garden).
But, there is a price to pay for everything in life.
It is up to us to decide what seems more important- a happy life or a life of luxury. Perhaps some have it both. To me, it’s one or the other.
Would I miss it once it’s gone?
I know that I will certainly miss my children when they decide to fly their nest, but probably not the nest itself.