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This is something that I have been doing all my life. Now I feel that it is time to check in with myself and assess this life long belief.

Believing that all people are good at their very essence has been repeatedly challenged throughout my life. However, being a lover of people and believer that we are all one and essentially the same, I have been sticking to it. I have been projecting my traits onto everyone I ever met, whether I knew them or not. My trust was granted.

There have been endless occasions when people proved me wrong and hurt me out of their selfishness. But I kept on believing and getting hurt.

Well, this time was different. Although I had my doubts, I went along with their story. I wanted to believe them. I wanted their story to be true. Personal boundaries went out of the window, promises were being broken, I was getting more and more hurt. And I still stuck to it, giving more and more chances and being let down every time. Until I hit a brick wall.

It was a scam. It was a betrayal. It was all a lie.

And I allowed it to happen. I let people fool me. I pretend not to see through their games. I let things slide. And it becomes the relationship dynamics.

Just to be clear, there are absolutely NO exceptions in the type of a relationship; be it between parents and children, lovers or friends. The basis is the same- it is in human nature to cross boundaries if it is allowed. Or, at least that is my experience.

Therefore, I really have to look the truth in the eye and admit that I have done it to myself again. And, am I going to finally learn this lesson at my middle age? I feel that all of my guides in spirit are screaming at me to listen to my gut and learn from the self inflicted pain. For the last time, people do what they are allowed to do. They treat us the way that we allow them to treat us. They give as much as we ask from them. People are human and human nature is flawed.

So, here we are staring the truth in the eye and accepting things as they are. It’s a significant part of living a conscious life, of living in the present moment, of accepting things as they are and not as they appear to be.

My advice to myself would be to accept what is and see where that leaves me. How does that make me feel? Do I want to carry on with that situation or is it time to move on?

The choice is always ours to make.

Love and light,

Angela x.

 

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Since New Year’s Eve, the trees have become my most profound teachers.

My friend, Monika, has introduced me to the wonder of these extraordinary beings. I have always loved them, planted them, prayed for their protection and wanted to connect to them. But, what I didn’t understand was that trees speak from the heart.

I have been guarding my heart, fearing that there would be people hurting me on purpose. My heart couldn’t take any more pain. So, when my father died last year, I embraced the chance to open up my heart to grief at first. I needed to wash out the pain with my tears and by sharing my feelings openly and honestly.

After a while, peace started replacing the pain and I was ready to speak from my heart. That’s when the trees called me to connect to their world.

It is a world of beauty, intelligence, peace, wisdom, oneness, love and acceptance. It is also so much more than I could ever put into words. Someone once said: ‘Off into the forest I go, to lose myself and find my soul’. That is exactly how I feel. Even when I walk down the same path, I keep noticing “new” trees. Each time more and more of them stop me, connect with me and teach me something unique. It can be anything from a personal message, to a vision about the past or future, a feeling of pure bliss and joy, to a simple introduction of what their role is in the world. Some are record keepers, some are gate keepers, some are young and shy and wouldn’t say much, some are immensely wise, some open up specific chakras, some clear them, some fill them up, some ground you, some give you a feeling of being launched into space at rocket speed. No tree is the same, even within the same species. Just like us.

Science says that we share 50% of our genetic material with the plants. I definitely share more. I have grown up on herbal teas and herbal medicine. That lead to me being a pescatarian and doing plant medicine. I am super sensitive and in tune with nature. I know that we are part of that nature, but most people are out of tune with it. And I feel out of tune with such people.

Plant world completely respects and goes by the natural cycles. There is exact order of when they go to rest, when they start waking up and when they start living their life fully. They live in complete harmony with the rest of nature and they all support each other.

Trees communicate via their roots with all other trees. It literally is like our internet, but without needing devices. You just tune in and exchange information. It’s automatic. Like telepathy. We all have that skill.

I have to single out one of those trees that I will never forget. It is an old Oak (around 600 years old) that took my breath away. Despite it’s size, Monika had to point him out to me as I just didn’t see him. But when I did, I stood there for a while, as it touched me so deep that it made me cry because of it’s majesty, strength and unconditional love that is emanating from it. That moment will stay with me for life.

I could go on about the trees, but I ill end it here for now. Every walk is a new adventure and there will be many more stories to tell.

May you find inspiration wherever you go.

Love and light,

Angela.

 

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