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One year older (and hopefully wiser)

2022 has been a very dynamic year, full of travels, changes, endings. We were given the freedom of movement back and off I went to: Peru, Serbia, Italy and Macedonia. I have been invited to visit some other locations too, but have decided to draw the line under four air travels abroad. Although, this month has not finished yet :), so watch this space.

There have been three major changes in my life this year: full-on menopause, my eldest child moving away and becoming a self-sufficient student and me embarking on a counselling course.

Menopause has been talked about more than ever before this year, mainly because people in the public eye have decided to speak openly about their personal experiences. I asked my mum how she went through it and got a usual reply of: “I had no time to think about menopause when I was going through it”. To be fair, she had just started her own business back then in a small town that has been ruled by men since time infinite. She has been so successful in doing it that it has become a legacy that has been passed onto a younger generation and is still going strong.

My menopause feels very emotional, there are numerous physical symptoms (tightness in hip area, migraines, restless sleep, excessive hair loss, to name just a few) and the physical and emotional changes play on one’s mind. So, it has been a God-sent to start a new course and explore an area of interest- Humanistic Psychology.

It is a fascinating and hugely applicable subject to life. It highlights the humanness behind people’s thoughts, actions and feelings, the importance of unconditional positive regard for ourselves and for other people, of empathy rather than sympathy, of authenticity and of the fact that we can’t save others-we can only be there as a guide until they figure out a solution for their problems themselves.

I won’t talk much about my son leaving home. It’s what he has been dreaming of and it’s the best thing that has ever happened to him, although challenging at times. So, I am a proud and grateful parent that my baby is on the way to achieving his goals and fulfilling his dreams.

So, what have been the lessons of 2022? Well, I am happy to say that because we are free to travel yet again, I have realised that change is inevitable and it doesn’t always have to be for the worse. Life does go on, no matter what happens. It’s about how we deal with what happens that matters. Accepting responsibility for our own wellbeing and for making the necessary changes for ourselves, accepting what is, adapting to situations, being patient, pragmatic but also realising where we are in all of that, how it makes us feel. Checking in with oneself daily, even many times a day as needed until we are fully conscious of how we feel in any given moment. That is a sacred place to be. That gives us our power back. That enables us to look after ourselves the way we need to be looked after, addressing our needs and wants, to accept and love ourselves unconditionally. Because, it all starts from us, from how we think and feel about ourselves.

My Christmas message for everyone is: love yourself first and everything else will fall into place.

Merry Christmas and an amazing New Year from my heart to you.

Love you all beautiful souls xxx.

 

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Changing my mindset

It is easy to be positive when things are going well. But, when we’re in the third lockdown not knowing when we will be able to carry on with our life, it’s tough.

So, when I woke up this morning, an inspiring video by Diana Cooper on being positive came up on Youtube. I watched it and my whole world has shifted. She explains in simple terms how our thoughts, our inner dialogue, our beliefs and the words that we use influence what happens in our life.

I used to buy into destiny and I, admittedly, was of a victim mentality. But, once I started thinking in terms of energy, frequency and vibration (kudos to Nikola Tesla, who mentioned it first), it became clear to me that we attract what we emit. Basically, it is like tuning into a radio station (a bit old fashioned, but you get what I mean), you receive the exact station that you’ve tuned into.

Now, figuring something out (or getting it mentally) is one thing, but applying it into my life on a daily basis was another. We have so many programmes stored in our subconscious and active in our conscious mind that it takes a while to re-program ourselves. Shadow work, inner reflection, observing my thoughts, reactions and feelings, creating new healthier habits, clearing the old (thoughts, habits, feelings, memories, beliefs) are just some of the things that have to be done, in order to change one’s mindset.

I am not going to preach on anyone, we are all human and every single one of us on the planet has lessons to learn and unlearn. It is as simple as that. The lessons might be different, but the work that’s needed is the same. It all starts with us and ends with us. It all starts with our attitude, with a willingness to change ourselves for the better, so that we can attract better into our lives.

One crucial thing that I have to mention separately in all this is gratitude. I wrote about this recently and my client and a friend, Rosemary, is absolutely right-being grateful undeniably changes one’s life for the better. Being grateful every day basically means noticing, acknowledging the gifts and all of the good that comes into our life every single day. On some days it may be the basics, like the roof over our head and food on our table. It is, nevertheless, more than homeless have on any day. On other days, like it has been today for me, there are countless blessings that made me feel on top of the world.

So, whatever you do, dear people, be grateful and keep working on yourself. Good work is never completely done, for as long as there is war, hunger, and global crisis of any kind. It’s all a reflection of our inner world, our outdated beliefs.

We can make a difference that we want to see in the world (Mahatma Gandhi).

With love and light,

Angela.

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Living in the moment

My last year’s December blog was “2019-a year to remember”. I think that we can all safely say that year 2020 beats it by a mile.

So, what has this year taught me?

I can say that it has taught me for sure to live in the moment.

Life used to be very orderly, planned out, sequential and predictable. In all honesty, it has become simply boring. Everything was about other people, from the nearest and dearest to the wider community. My time and energy were completely spent on thinking about the past, present and future, worrying, stressing, running around and trying to make everyone happy, to meet other peoples’ expectations.

Running around came to a sudden halt at the end of March, when the first lockdown began. I was feeling rebellious, as my healing practice just started to take off properly. I was thriving. So, what good was sitting at home going to do for me or my clients? I had plans for every day and was looking forward to get up and make a difference in someone else’s life.

Well, guess what- I forgot that I need just as much care and attention every day. So, I started going in, listening to my feelings, focusing back on myself, my needs (mind, body and soul). I slowed right down and listened to my body. If it needs rest, I rest, if I’m hungry, I make something nutritious to eat, if I want to be by myself, I go for a walk or read in my room, if I feel like listening to loud music, I create a playlist and blast it from my phone,…

I started evaluating my relationships and distancing from people who I felt took too much of my energy. I went on shamanic retreats, tried all sorts of healing techniques to help my body, mind and soul to heal. After all, what good is a healer if they stop working on healing themselves?

As a result, I feel fulfilled, I look good, I feel strong, I choose what I want to spend my time and energy on, I feel connected, happy, inspired. I have been able to look back and take the lessons out of situations, write them down and apply the wisdom in my life and pass it on to others.

Lockdowns have liberated me, by giving me time to look into my deepest self and embrace it. What I have discovered inside of me is love for myself and everyone else, love for nature and gratitude for each and every moment of my life. I don’t think about what’s gone, nor do I worry about what the future might bring. I just live my life every day, moment by moment and feel grateful for it, whatever it brings my way.

Love and light to all of you, my brothers and sisters,

Angela.

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Dealing with death

This title might deter a few readers. However, after both my mentor and my father dying this year, I have to look death in the eye.

I have decided to accept it as a teacher, rather than a taboo that it has been until recently. There is much to be learnt from the process of dying. Just like the birth does, death comes in it’s own time and takes over a person’s life. As a result, it also makes a lasting change in the lives of everyone that knows and loves the deceased person. But, how do we deal with the fact that someone has gone from this plane of existence for ever? How long does it take to get over someone’s passing? Do we ever get completely over someone’s death or is it just that we have to learn to live with it?

One evening, in an attempt to find any sort of guidance as to how to deal with my grief, a friend recommended a book “Die wise” by Stephen Jenkinson. I looked it up straight away and found a number of interviews done on him, where he goes into the depth and his background knowledge on the subject. He has been working in palliative care for decades and has decided to write the book based on his interactions with the dying and their families, as well as from a perspective of palliative care personnel. He tackles with the fact that we (our modern society) have detached ourselves from the fact that we all have to die one day. We use modern research and medicine to combat the process of ageing and dying. We don’t see it as a natural part of life, but as almost a disease or a condition that we have to fight or at least delay as much as possible.

Both my father and my mentor died in pain. They were fighters and they gave their all to be able to carry on for as long as was possible. Both of them had people around who were trying to help look after them. They took various kinds of medication (both conventional and alternative), changed their diet and deepened their spiritual beliefs. And just when it seemed like they were going to pull out of the dying process, they passed away.

Jenkinson made an interesting observation that in the eyes of a child, death isn’t traumatic. Children can see that a person is changing and that things are different about a dying person, but they don’t think about the death and therefore don’t grieve. They watch everyone and everything involved and learn from it. They are present in each moment and don’t worry about the future.

Unlike children, I worried about the death of my father years in advance. I would wake up and have the thought in my head that he died. I would then call home to make sure that everything is ok. And, ironically, on the day that he died, I had no premonition. The last time I spoke to him he sounded almost like his old self and I was certain that he was winning against the inevitable.

My father was a warmhearted man who always thought about other people first, who loved his family and friends, who always had great advice, who knew how to calm me down and who I felt unconditional love and understanding from. Those are the gifts that will stay with me forever and I can hope and try to make others feel the same way that he made me feel. Because, feelings and memories are the things that we take everywhere with us, even when we pass on. They change us and shape us as deep as becoming a part of our soul. So, I will finish with that thought and a saying from my mentor, which is:

Keep smiling 🙂

Love and light to you all,

Angela.

 

 

 

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I’ve hit the ground running

In December, my friend and mentor has gone to the hospital. He is still in there.

My son was also admitted to a hospital last month with a serious injury. Due to his age and good health (and his chosen diet), he came out the same day. He is recovering well.

While I was visiting family last week in Serbia, my father was referred to hospital with Deep Vein Thrombosis. It’s been an ongoing health issue for the last 2-3 years.

So, here I am reflecting on January 2019 when my healing “business” was launched overshadowed with the latest developments.

How does a person split themselves between realities, wishes and possibilities (including timelines and dimensions)? Working with people and always searching for answers, I am discovering that there is SO much more to a human being than the naked eye can see.

What the eye can see is the tip of the iceberg. We have layers of aura around us, our body covers up the intricate internal body system as well as our soul. Our soul connects us to the Divine/God/Source. Our soul is the ever lasting, indestructible energy that keeps on travelling through space and time, collecting experiences and changing form. Our emotions are the world of the own, as is our Ego/rational self.

No wonder it takes us a while to process everything that happens (and a lot does every day). So, we are forever catching up with our mind, body and soul, trying to bring it all together into now/the present moment.

Good luck fellow humans. We’ve got quite a ride ahead of us, before it all comes into balance. First it has to happen within us, in order for it to be around us.

We are co creators of our reality. We are the ones who wanted to experience free will and have never quite grasped the responsibility side of it.

However, the more that we take time to process our thoughts, wishes and emotions, the more we get to understand ourselves and others. The more that we become (by doing the work) conscious of ourselves, the more we consciously choose people, places and circumstances, the more we create our desired reality.

Therefore, I could take the recent events as being a victim of circumstances or as the Universe testing my strength as per my request. These things come at a perfect time for us to show what we’ve learnt and how well we respond (not react) to life’s challenges. And, somewhere along the line, we get rewarded and upgraded to a higher level (of wisdom, strength and consciousness). That’s what the Earth school is all about.

Saying that, I just might choose a different school for my next lifetime. I hope that my next experience is a more enjoyable one. This school has been a bit intense, to say the least.

Stay well and look after yourselves, dear souls.

Love and light,

Angela x.

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Patience

Just to be clear, patience isn’t my favourite subject.

People think that I am very patient. But am I, or is it being laid back, detached, secretly hoping that something will change? Is it me waiting for a miracle?

I like to think of patience as a great teacher. There’s certainly no argument that can win against it. If it’s time for a pause, a break, a rest, a re-think, if it’s too soon for something to happen, all we can do is surrender.

However, it really isn’t easy to surrender every time. The Universe is saying:”Not now. Not yet” and all we want to know and can think of is :”When?” for goodness sake.

So, how does nature do it, the plants, the animals, the seasons patiently waiting for their turn to shine?

Because, every time that we show impatience, it slows things down even more. The Sun doesn’t say to the Moon: “Get out of the way! It’s my turn to shine!” Roses wait patiently for the daffodils and the bluebells to finish flowering, so that they can grace us with their scented beauty. Or do they?

Isn’t waiting a non-existing concept in nature, apart from us, humans? We feel that, if we can get something right now, there’s no reason why we shouldn’t. After all, there is so much more that we want, so let’s get onto the next thing. And the next. And the next. And we’re still unhappy and still waiting for the next wish to come true.

That is how we’re wasting our precious life, dear friends.

God created patience for us, because we would ,otherwise have destroyed everything in our way very quickly. We just don’t know how to let something unravel naturally, on it’s own, when it’s ready. Instead of when we want it to happen, why can’t we just say:”Let it be.” Probably because our Ego says that we need it now, we deserve it and we come first. Right? However, imagine what would happen if we got everything that we ever wanted right away? Would it really be the best thing in the world? That is up to you to decide. But, remember, that life is what actually happens while we’re waiting for the next thing. Because, “Time and tide wait for no man”. So, LIVE your life and be ready for it’s wonderful surprises. That’s when you won’t need to use patience any more.

With love and blessings,

Angela.

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Lessons that birds teach us

As I was resting on my sofa and looking out of my living room window, I noticed wood pigeons building a nest.

I’ve seen them building nests over the years every year in a different hiding space. One was arranging the twigs that the other one was constantly bringing to it’s partner. When the nest is finished, they lay their eggs, then take turns in looking after them. When the eggs hatch, they take turns in feeding the young and themselves. Then they teach their young all of the life skills and watch them leave the nest, maybe never to see them again. And they keep on repeating the cycle year after year, for the rest of their lives.

That made me ask myself:

  • How come that birds never worry about their young after they’ve left?
  • How can they leave building a nest for the last minute?
  • How come that they don’t have supermarkets or plant their food, yet they always have as much as they need?
  • How can they not worry about the next day or the foreseeable future?
  • How come that they find time to sing every day? and many more questions.

I guess that’s why there are sayings like: “As free as a bird”, “As happy as a lark”, “Bird’s eye view”, “Birds of a feather”, a.s.o. I wasn’t the first person to notice that we can learn from our feathered friends.

Be as it may, animals seem to know and understand the cycles of nature and just go with the flow. They feel when a natural end to a situation has come and they simply accept the change. And live on happily, saluting the Sun every morning and singing it’s lullaby every evening. Meanwhile, us humans think that we know better and go to bed full of worry about the next day.

Who’s the cleverer in this game of life? Us or nature? I am betting on nature any time.

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Hope

On 15th April, I went to a charitable fundraising event. Funds were collected for two charities. One was set up to help look after people with the Motor neurone disease.

A young man gave a speech which was about his brother who suffers from it. At one point he said (what was told to them by doctors) that it was incurable. That sounded hopeless, as if anyone with that disease of any age, background, heritage, ability, etc. has identical destiny. There is no cure and therefore, let us help those people feel as comfortable and looked after as possible, until their premature death.

Now, that struck a cord in me. I felt like standing up and saying that there is always hope. But I didn’t.Not just because it would embarrass my family who were also present, but because people weren’t prepared to hear it. And it wasn’t my pitch.

That reminded me of how and why I started researching into available alternatives to conventional healthcare. It was when my son was born and suffered from various food allergies and everything that accompanies them (digestive issues, skin problems, pain and discomfort). I had to switch my intuition on, as a newborn baby can only cry if something isn’t right. It was down to me to find out the cause and to find an alternative way so that they don’t suffer. Conventional doctors weren’t able to help much, so my journey into the word of alternative medicine and general clean lifestyle began. I ventured into a Chinese medicine practitioner’s office and never looked back. I also took a chance on Homeopathy, which also worked beautifully. I had to read all food labels when food shopping, in order to avoid the allergens. It was a minefield at the beginning, as I discovered that milk was in 80% of all products that we were buying, as well as eggs and soya.

Now that my son is old enough, he is continuously choosing what is best for him (he is a vegan now and has embraced the world of sport and general exercise).

Therefore, there is always hope and a way forward. I know that some conditions and diseases are more life threatening and serious. But, my son’s condition would have deteriorated and caused some of those serious diseases if we didn’t find what works for him. That is my point.

There is always a way. We just need to go within and let our inner feeling guide us.

Namaste.

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Latest lessons

9th November 2018

 

A lesson that has been with me for some time now is:

LET GO OF THE DESIRED OUTCOME.

I am working on integrating it.

 

What has also been emerging, as of yesterday is: RESPONSIBILITY for my thoughts and deeds.

In order to grow up, i.e. mature and to be able to manifest for my highest good, I need to accept the part that I play in creating my daily life.

And, at the same time, remembering the bigger picture (my contract and personal mission).

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